Here’s To Always Having Something To Look Towards...
It seems like no matter when or what is happening around me/us, we always have something to look forward to. This is a wonderful thing. Whether it is looking forward to a friend coming home to visit from out of state, Maya’s next new development or a vacation to some exotic locale, the Angel’s always have something to look forward to. We are definitely privileged.
This topic came to mind because it has been wickedly frigid here in the city lately and coming off of the holidays I thought about the many homeless, unhappy or otherwise disparaged individuals who do not have much to look forward to but another deadly evening, self-loathing or another day in a life that hasn’t gone according to plan. I have been, over the last several months, recognizing and appreciating the awesomeness that is my lot in life.
It may or may not come as a surprise to some of you, but I have an incredible desire to do something good with my life. I’ve seen it a hundred times, if not more, in the movies. Guy has great future, guy gets stuck in a rut, guy finds cause worth fighting for, guy changes lives for the better (and gets the girl at the end). I believe in Hollywood these are called storybook endings. I’ve often wanted to be in those shoes. Find something so worthwhile, something that I believe in so much that I can put all of my energy and passion into accomplishing something that will in the end change lives. I’ve often thought that this had to be for the less fortunate, those that can’t protect themselves, or some other group in need. Perhaps this would be something so great that it would leave me a remembered person. Just the idea of contributing to so many and changing lives is, or would be, something truly miraculous.
I think I have been thinking about this increasingly because I want Maya to grow up having a great deal of compassion and good-heartedness. Perhaps if I cannot manage to do anything as grandiose as what I would like to accomplish, my greatest gift will be to raise Maya in such a way that perhaps she will want to or can do something throughout her life. I haven’t managed to find my cause...I’m still looking. One day I will find it and make good on my wish to make a difference. Maybe when Maya is away at college, or off and married, Michelle and I can pick up and join the Peace Corps. Perhaps my great deed will be to raise Maya to be giving and compassionate. Maybe Maya is my great cause! We shall see, the next 50 years will tell the tale.
As always, my world revolves around my family!
T
Saturday, January 10, 2009
